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August 9th, 2004
09:41 pm [Link]	such a strange little boy Well me and Brandon are yet again not together but this time it was both of our decisions and the strange thing is when we got back together we talked not to much cuz we were both kinda busy we break up last night and he calls me 5 times that night and texted me all day today and called me 2 times so im like ok..wth we break up and then we get close again ....he asked me today ok well if we spend time together soon and we feel comfortable would u take me back if we really feel its right again n i was like really dont know...so i duno we had a great 3 months together and a good friendship for a while b4 we dated so i will always be close with him. I love him soo much and what made me feel better is last night he called one of those times just to say hey u kno that i love u still alot right? and then i said yea i love u to n hes like ok well thats the only reason i called i love u gnight... i was like ok hes turning strange on me..So im thinking maybe we just need some time to hang out and think cause he says he misses how great we use to be and how good i use to make him feel b4 this last couple of weeks. Who knows whats going to happen but he wants to spend time together this week so thursday we plan to.I cant say i miss him because he still acts like my boyfriend guys are just werid....but it makes me feel better knowing im still in his head and that im important.Maybe just maybe we will make it through this one and come out better than ever..well i had nothing else to write about cuz if u were me in this situation he would be on your mind to lol so yea gnight every one... Current Mood: curious Current Music: leave-(get out)-jojo (Leave a comment)
August 6th, 2004
10:53 pm [Link]	well hello there I was informed of the actions of a former friend thats right i said former as in never again will i attempt to be nice or respect you ever again. You know Krystal for the most of it i stayed out of this whole mess and i hafta say i tried to be your friend reguardless of Allie and Tori being my friend but you always assumed i was pulling bullshit before i was. So like i told you before im done with it what right do you have to keep hurting people im trying to figure out how u changed you havent just gettin alittle better at your acting. I will give it to you people make mistakes but you repeat the same mistake over and over again and then expect that a sorry is going to get you out of it. I think its time for you to grow up. All of your friends brought themselves into this thinking that they are defending you well now im defending my friends. you know the ones that dont cheat and lie and when they do take responsibility for it you must of not figured out this whole friend thing.You know im not even sitting here calling you a whore or ne thing because i believe u like the attention i dont know all i know is i have NO respect for you what so ever. Im thru being nice to you and watch you hurt other people yea we were friends and friends tell friend things they dont want to hear sometimes and thats what im doing. You're soo immature it isnt funny and the comment about how come people deal with shit in their lives and others dont or what ever all i can say is in one week of my life my bestfriend of 4 years!!! turned his back on me because of his gf my bf and i had probs and we broke up my parents got in a bad car accidnet and my cuz almost lost her baby and that week i sat and thought what did i do to deserve this mess and i thought why is it you a person who keeps pulling the same shit gets a great guy who cares bout her which she knew her former best friend had something for when you just took him away see i never cheated but once and it was the biggest mistake ever and you keep doing it and keep lieing to your friends and keep being selfish but you geta good guy when i havent pulled half the shit and i was getting fucked over. I dont even know Anthony well but i do know he didnt deserve that and you for sure dont deserve him im done you are Nothing to me because you made yourself worthless. I duno why mayb for attention the truth is i dont care there isnt any thing to care about so comment all you want be stupid call me a bitch ive been called worse and being a bitch isnt a bad thing at least im not labled a whore which you brought upon your self you put it all out there and you keep putting your life out there for the whole world to comment on expecting them not to. Well sweety this is the real world and its mean so get use to it you are pulling this middle school and highschool bullshit i cant wait til you get into the real world and realize how many people wont give a damn about you and wont give you this attention when you do this.Ive fucked up many times but i dont keep making the same mistake and just UGH! its just frustrating how dumb you can be. I cant stand any thing more than people who creat you are soo disrespectful it isnt funny i hope you read this and think stop looking for attention stop putting your life out there if you dont want comments dammit.GROW the fuck up. Dam one day its gona hit you that you have nothing and are nothing because you yourself ruined your life princess.Tell you alittle seceret its just gona get harder..but go ahead u and your little friends comment make me annoyed all i can say is it wont be good for you.And i had every right to write this you put ur shit out on your journals bout what you think and this just happened to be what i thought so dont flatter your self because i didnt write it cuz your the center of my world and i feel the need every min to ruin your life na you do that good on your own im writing this to knock some sense into you but you are benyond help got so bad that you need some sort of sexual attnetion from guys to feel good so after you have sex all do all this shit wit guys that dont even care bout you does it make u feel better?that you brought the title of whore upon yourself and that evert 1 found out. Oh and when you date guys knowing that some of these guys ment something to your socalled friends thats terrible friends before boyfriends how could u hurt ur friends like that after you got so many chances.Your fucking dirt man... shit i feel sorry for how stupid you are some fucking people never learn... Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: all down hill from here-new found glory (2 comments \| Leave a comment)
July 26th, 2004
09:12 pm [Link]	the past week... Lets see this past week has been um very problem filled Tuesday me and Brandon broke up for like 6 hours and then we got back together well we were together again for like a day and then Thursday came and he decided once again that he just didnt feel the same about me any more.I will admit it got me down for like 3 days but while that was going on i lost my bestfriend but i think i lost him alot time ago hes off in his own life but i dunt really care...As for Brandon i loved him alot and i duno its over and i cried and well im getting soo much better because he isnt the first and wont be the last why should i care about a person who doesnt care about me who put up a front you know mayb he did love me alot it sure seemed like it but its over now so cant wonder if he ever really did...Ne way yesterday at work i got a call from a stranger telling me that my parents were in a car accident he wouldnt give me any information my heart dropped i was really scared i finally made it to the hospital and my mom was hurt the worst with broken bones and such but she is home and every 1 is ok.Im really thankful for that but that made me really really think about what was important and that day i texted Brandon because i was scared and bcuz i thought even though we werent together he'd comfort me but he told me he was really sorry and hoped they were ok but he doesnt feel the same bout me any more i wasnt looking to be back with him i was looking for a friend i thought i had bcuz he swore when we were together how much me loved me and did all this stuff for me for 3 months but hey 2 weeks changed it all. oh well he let me down when i needed him the most its ok cuz i dont need that shit.But yea everything is ok now i guess and im not sittin here moping ne more im ok and life goes on ...and im ok Current Mood: stressed Current Music: angels-jessica simpson (1 comment \| Leave a comment)
July 18th, 2004
10:52 pm [Link]	its been a while Well its been years since i wrote in this thing lol . I work always and forever some summer might as well be in school. Any way life has been interesting its been making me grow up and deal with stupid situations as usual. My bf has a job that keeps him working some weeks and not others but this past week and this coming week he works every day. At first not ever seeing him killed me cuz im use to us always being together but hey i kno he is still in love with me and misses me so thats good for now... i only saw him an hour and a half last week i felt soo alone i spent alot of time with friends and new people and alot of people from work. Cant believe ive kept a job almost 9 months its amazing to me lol. I get along with every 1 sep the 2 new annoying people and i duno just really comfortable there.I get to see Brandon in the morning tommorow for alil and then tuesday and thursday and sometime this week we will spend a full day together and next week he doesnt work so we gona do some catching up. Even with working all day he finds the time to text me hey babe i was thinking of u and i just wanted to tell u that i love you and i miss u and call me at least 3 times a day still....I love him to death and we are making it through lots of werid times together and he sticks by me and hasnt once thought of backing out he keeps us together...thats my baby...no one else is like him like he says "love is forever" lol duno where he got it from prolly frm a movie but he keeps telling me it says he got it from me but ive never said that or mayb i did and forgot i duno...I found a really great guy after a whole bunch of nothings and now i got 1 person trying to stop that i think take me and brandon apart but that isnt gona happeni think we are looking at a long time together but were just gona take it as it is....my intentions werent to write bout him guess he was just on my mind well work is tommorow yay for me just worked today and yesterday i only dont work 2 days a week...i have no life ne more cuz i work soo much 9 hours every time i work yay for me...well good night.... Current Mood: loved Current Music: nothing sleepy time (Leave a comment)
July 14th, 2004
12:53 pm [Link]	I AM:Sick.gona die...jk I Want:To go shopping I Have:alot of time on my hands today I WISH:I could see Brandon more but he works alot :-( I HATE:Stupid people I FEAR:being alone I HEAR:People cutting grass I SEARCH:For songs to download that dont fuck up I WONDER:How Danny is doing I REGRET:Some stuff i did last year I LOVE: BRANDON! I ALWAYS:sleep on the left side I AM NOT:that together I DANCE:to that 70s show theme with Jess I CRY:When it hurts or when im scared I AM NOT ALWAYS: that blonde I WRITE:Stupid things in my journal when im bored I LOSE:Most fights with my baby lol I WIN:Most fights with my baby I CONFUSE: my close friends alot and then my self! I NEED:To go out today I SHOULD:really go back to sleep Current Mood: sick Current Music: my happy ending-Avril (1 comment \| Leave a comment)
June 3rd, 2004
08:30 am [Link]	in skool n bored its Thursday i wish it was Friday if it was id be with my Brandon!lol yuh thats right i've fallin for him but its ok cuz so has he n well i trust him n i kno he loves me n its wut i think that matters lol. Ne way things are soo different lately with every 1 it seems n its like the ppl i use ta b close to i dunt rele talk to ne more its jus kinda like everything was put on hodl on lost mayb i duno well wit sum ppl i duno. I realized alot lately n i rele think ive grown up and ive been realizing what matters and layin off sum of the dumb things i do. I miss alot of ppl though n i miss louis even though he calls me alot now lol my poor Louis is lonely up there but dunt worry sweetie ur gona find a grl ta fall for who will fal jus as hard n u will b like me n brandon n Danny n jenn who have us all beat with their 8 months! lol my Dork is soo cute cant believe he's kept with her soo long thats great rele close to a year! hope u make it ne way like i said b4 i get alot now n i realized how selfish i use to b wit my bestfriend n always wanting to b wit him wen he was in love n i get him now cuz its like that wit me n Brandon always wantin to b together n when we are its great and yea.. lol LOVE its great . But as always ive worried about stupid things but he puts up wit my gayness n understands even though i kno it bothers the hell outa him n he jus wants ta scream sumtimes. i love u babi thanks for being there ok well im getting tired n i want to go home so ima go bye all!...Love u Danny, Louis n most of all my Babi! Current Mood: loved Current Music: --------- (3 comments \| Leave a comment)
June 1st, 2004
08:53 am [Link]	hiya! UGH!!!!!!!!!....... Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: at skool no music.. (Leave a comment)
May 27th, 2004
10:33 am [Link]	its been a while WEll my computer has been broken for awhile now n i havent been able to write ne thing so neway how's every 1? lol stupid question i kno but wut "fun" we are having at good old western high school where as usually a typical slut is spreadin disease n lies around the school. Well the funny thing about that one is the fact that ALMOST every 1 is aganist u bcuz lets face it uve fucked ova how many ppl...now i said fucked ova not fucked bcuz that a whole nother 5 hours of coversation.. lol I just have one question are u proud of ur self? is this sum kind of goal u where trying to reach does it make u feel special now that u have ALL the attention. Well bet u didnt think it b this kind of attention isnt u scary knowing that the ppl u use to b closest to hate u??? hmm id b jus alil scared bcuz we kno everything n any thing about u oh wait..mayb not i mean u do LIE alot..So neway how's Anthony?? doing good i hope dunt 4get a condom..das all i can say ok answer me this how can u have had sex wit soo Many guys ur 16 wut happened u felt bad gave hand outs?? (tori) lol or was it that u loved the attention??well ok i duno ne more but sweetie u fucked up bad so have fun wit the life u ,made for ur self...thanks for fuckin us all ova....guess thats jus wut sluts do... (3 comments \| Leave a comment)
May 1st, 2004
12:31 am [Link]	all confused Tonight i went out wit my flaca n jack-a-ma-lin n it was ok for a while then i ran into a friend who i use to like n well mayb i still do we spent the entire night talking n flirting sum what.We spent the night jus being around each otha n it wuz nice . cuz like even if i didnt like him alil id still lik being around him bcuz hes str8. but see even if he did like me which i duno if he do but it sorta seems he could b into me alil frm how we act n how he kept touchin me but who knos i mean i flirt alot n it doesnt mean ne thing but ne way i duno u kno lol i jus dunt but even if like im sayin we couldnt cuz we are kinda far away n we both work so its kinda like ugh! i stil wana see wuts up we were talking bout if i go bak net year wut we would do so yuh yay i guess alil lol ne way i duno hes jus rele str8 n i hope we talk more even if it doesnt lead to ne thing cuz hes jus rele nice to b around god i sound soo stupid...ne way im rele tired n ima b headin to bed...gnight all.... Current Mood: blah Current Music: sexy eyes -baby bash (1 comment \| Leave a comment)
April 29th, 2004
10:48 pm [Link]	Hola! Ok well i was rele happy today n i felt like the old me today n i had no worries sep for gettin work done at skool. Im 16 i shouldnt have all these gay worries. Im soo str8 again with my bestest friend in the whole wide world its all nice n fun again n i get that good feeling with him again so me n my dork are ok n i will neva worry again like that n neva will we go though all this stupid stuff. ok well happiness ended at about 11:50 tonight wen another close friend that i love decided to tell me that he is goin to make a bad decision to try n make his friend see that its bad what hes doing. im all for this helping n caring about ur friends but wut he is talking about is puttin him self at risk of sumthing bad . 2 wrongs do not make a right n i careabout n love him soo much n i worry soo much about him up there he moved away n i feel like icant teake care n help him n he needs it soo bad n he needs to realize soo many ppl love him n that these bad decisions he makes are hurtin us espeically me.God im soo mad i hate the decisions he makes but i dunt hate him at all i wish i could do more then lecture n i neva want him to think i do it cuz im a bitch i do it cuz i care soo much i cant see sumthin terrible happening.He rele need to realize he can trust n let ppl care about him and that hes an amazing person that i charish soo much!im blessed wit sum rele great ppl in my life n i would neva wana lose him.. i duno i kno 4sure ima go see him i dunt care how but i am i wish i could bring him bak down here wit me for good. he rele needs to b down here wit ppl who care...ugh! i am rele jus hoping for the best right now!I love u soo much u kno who u are please dunt do this..please think bcuz u kno theres another way ima b rele rele upset wit u if u do n ur gona hurt me so if u care at all bout my feelins think of other options okk...be safe sweety... Current Mood: worried Current Music: with you-jessica simpson (Leave a comment)

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